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i just feel like ive missed out on some much stuff. I miss so many things i use to love. It just never feels right and i dont know why.
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| nothing feels the same |
[25 Oct 2004|12:24am] |
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silent drive-our lady of worthless miracles |
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i guess ever sense i found out he was really sick i just keep it down inside..
then it just had to come out..
but i dont know what i would do if i woke up and he wasnt there any more..
ive grown more in the last 2 months then i have in years..
i do miss some people that i use to see on a weekly basis..
i feel like shit for totally spacing a very special girls b-day..
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| i just didnt think it would ever be like this |
[20 Sep 2004|03:23am] |
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dry your eyes..over and over |
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in one single moment your whole life can change..
its so hard to try to figure out what you have done wrong when you didn't do anything..
i guess i was trying to play so hard that i didn't realize what i let you do to me..
i just wish i had never fallen for you..
trying to explain the way you feel when you have had a few drinks is so hard..
i think i am taking a break from all my vices..
i couldn't stand being in that room with those evil eyes
i look at you and you wount even glance
acting like we are strangers
just brushing off those nights that we spent
i didnt press you to hard because i just liked being with you
the only friend is a brother from far away
i guess i wish we could be close so regression never approaches
..and no matter whats your friends say about her never being right for you they are just being nice..
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| friends |
[29 Aug 2004|11:47pm] |
fuck man i am so pissed and i cant really pin it on anyt5hing
fuck friends right now
they just let you down
kind of drunk so parden my french
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| just waiting for that day when i feel good |
[17 Aug 2004|08:08pm] |
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against me |
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you ever get that feeling that its not suppose to be like this
happiness has been painted on my face for days
yet ive never been more frustrated with the situation at hand
want to fight it out and conquerer all the demons at hand
so i can show them and everyone that doesnt believe
i repeat those words that inspire everything:
"It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat."
i wish nothing more than a ruff outline that i will never receive
the problem lies in my inability to decide what is best
as my family get farther away
day by day
as i get more sick of not having any interest in anybody
i would give anything just to feel normal
and wake one day with out feeling sick to my stomach
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| weird shit |
[15 Aug 2004|11:34pm] |
some times i just feel left out
"loving something is all that matters it donesn't have to love you back."
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| Every bad thing is a result of someone with good intentions |
[14 Aug 2004|11:00pm] |
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the one am radio- we are also what we've lost |
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sometimes i miss just not having some one to talk too
and other times i miss just laying on my bed and talking about nothing
i disliking working 8 days straight and i hate flat tires
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| good events lacking passion |
[11 Aug 2004|10:53pm] |
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kwest |
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great day even better night..
there were only a few people that i didnt get to see or talk to that i would have like too..
the lack of female interaction also bugged me..
where do all the nice ones hide..
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| a wtf just happened night |
[10 Aug 2004|03:16am] |
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who cares fun is fun |
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who fucking cares its probebly not kool enough |
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driving around in a rolls royce
going bowling
getting a little typsy and yelling at people
random hot girls but not the ones i wanted to be there
seeing pictures of girls that i would actually like too get to now
trying to get in a fight but never happingin
and random craziness
and the sorrow of not being able to talk to someone koool untill 6 in the morning
p.s. really drunk
p.s. thank good for spell check because 90% of this spelling was wrong
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| long drives home |
[04 Aug 2004|12:18am] |
ive noticed that alot of the time i plan my way home around driving by the lake estates. I just think its because it seems so peaceful looking at a lake in shity ass vegas. Today was awesome good lunch with a great friend at the king and i and then just an adventure of a day.
something is missing
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| day off |
[02 Aug 2004|08:00pm] |
todays was awesome
i want to do something fun but nothing has come up yet
i wounder what the night will bring
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| im scared of everything but you |
[31 Jul 2004|10:23am] |
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Against me!!!!!!!!!! |
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one of these days
its gonna catch up to you
throwing looks like those around
4 hours of sleep in 2 days=crazy fucking times
so i showed up to work a little tippsy
and i sold twice as much as everyone else
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[26 Jul 2004|06:32pm] |
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today has been one of those why did i even wake up days
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| never enough |
[25 Jul 2004|11:11pm] |
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all on black |
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I sold alot of stuff at my work today, i was proud of myself. The next to days i am free from work. These days off were badly needed. I think i might go shopping tomorrow. Also tomorrow will be spent trying to find a girl to go on a date with this week. I need to see napoleon dynamite as well.
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| where ever i am its the place to be |
[23 Jul 2004|12:25am] |
good night all in all..
great day for the most part..
its hard to be sad these days..
this book really helped me sort somethings out..
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[22 Jul 2004|11:13am] |
nothing better than a few good drinks with a few good friends..
then you add in a few pretty girls..
the best night ever that ended at 1200..
cant wipe this smile off of my face..
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| figure it out |
[20 Jul 2004|03:04pm] |
I guess i'm a slut,
I'll open my mind up too you,
Like a cheerleader spreaders her legs under the bleachers.
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| the only thing i can promise is that ill make it warm next year |
[19 Jul 2004|06:48pm] |
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every thug needs a lady |
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im running dry of bad excuses.
just putting my self into the ground.
i dont need that to be happy.
for that matter i dont need you.
lately i have been fascinated with tranquility.
tommorrow i am going hiking.
as of now its me myself and i.
if u want to go your more than welcome.
we are at war, with this society.
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